Home Again, Home Again, Jiggidy Jog....

Home Again, the sweet smell of New Hampshire or is it?! I have to admit from the start it was odd flying in on Saturday evening. Not really knowing what to expect, I was greeted by a familiar face and left with him as my best bud drove me home. Things looked the same but that was only because it was pitch black. The following day was the shocker, I still felt like I was in Pennsylvania. How could this be? Had that officially become home? Couldn't have, Right?

Wrong, I have grown to love PA with a passion, not sure why...all it does is rain and rain and seem gloomy. By making me depressed I just don't understand how it could feel like home. As time has gone on and I've now been home for almost a week now things are starting to fit back into place. Evening driving the Volkswagen I still don't feel normal. And that's even my future car that has been around for a while.

"God, is this a test?", I've found myself asking. But the only answer I've gotten is..."Seek Me!" Well, there you have it. Seek Him....ok I thought I have been. What have I been doing wrong? As I road to the Cafe here at the Church I was just taking the time to one focus on the road but speak to God. No better way than pedal past 8.5 miles of his beautiful creation and just revel in him. It was a blessing. Still awaiting to see the growth and challenges that are placed in my life but as for now, I need to give it all to Him. A worker here at the church just reminded me of John 15, that apart from God, so without HIM in our lives, we can do NOTHING. Ding ding ding, I have been tricking myself to believe I was in tune with him when really deep down in I haven't been. Time to make a MAJOR shift.

I've got a very busy summer so now it is time to put my faith in God, my walk with him to the test and make sure that I give my life, relationships and everything up for HIM. Heres my challenge to you and myself so..."On your mark, Get set, GO!"

Are my brakes broken?

Chaos, the things around me starting to zip by, faster, faster, and faster....now a blur! Why can't I slow down? Are my brakes, my ability to say no and slowly decrease this pace, is it all broken? The answer to this is no! I am still capable...but how?

Life seems to just be so busy. College life is not easy...better yet life is not easy. I feel that lately on many different issues, whether life is so fast paced and busy, is a lesson on patience and faithfulness. Lately it has been told to me, from a man of great faith, that only will we be able to fully draw near to the Lord unless we first admit our weakness. This is something that in the chaos I've been crying, yelling, out to the Lord....I'm WEAK! The part of being revived, refreshed, is much like my latte that I just finished, it was like a small dose of revival. I know that might sound ridiculous but really, think about it all. That burst of caffeine is much like how God will get us through the hard times when we fully dive in to Him.

So yes, you did just read that I compared the glorious, Holy, empowerment of God to a tall Latte. But in reality it fits. Simple as it may be, so is God....He's a complex God but simple. How this is possible will always amaze me. But in those times, lately for instance, where I am just so overwhelmed with the busy times and need the energy...I must trust in my Eternal energy drink. That is my prayer time, resting in the Lord. I challenge all who are reading this to take some time tonight, and join me in a time of "reveling in the Lord". That is my newest phrase for what I am doing in life, or desiring. The word "revel" is defined by Webster Dictionary as: to take great pleasure or delight. How awesome is that....to take great pleasure in the Lord, to delight in the presence of an Almighty Being, our God and King. Makes me just feel at peace. So, go and revel in the Lord this evening, get on your knees, fall before Him and be real, broken, humbled before our God. Taste what He has in store for us...

I'm happy...but sad...

So many times, lost, abandoned, but why? I ask myself this question so many times and really am finding out the answers. Slowly, but they are appearing in God's timing.

I have to say a good friend of mine, a fellow brother deserves the credit for inspiring me to finally start documenting my thoughts as I seek the Lord in my day to day adventures. He is one of my brothers in Christ here in the area that have been able to speak into my life. But lately I've been embarking on a new journey thanks to a good friend, a amazing guy, whom I consider more than a brother in Christ, more than a friend, but a true brother. This guy has been looking out for me for the past 2 1/2 years and still is. It's simply amazing to see what the Lord does to keep us on our toes....my only problem was I, yet again, was not receptive to what the Lord was trying to show me, in a sense living a double standard. But lately as I've set some solid new standards I have been touched with love and the abounding Grace with which I have been saved.

God has really been speaking to me, not only with in my personal life, but in all relationships, whether my roommates, my family, my good close friends, or my darling girlfriend. My anger has been ceasing which is an amazing blessing and I've been so much happier these days, excited to see what is coming next.

I need to respond to something to a recent post from my friend, who I previously mentioned, wrote on his blog. Who are we really? Are we truly living as Christians should, or just maybe acting as one but in some areas not? Ask yourself that question...I know I was convicted by the term he used, Practical Atheist. WOW! This was something I have always wrestled with as many of you may have. How can we fix this guys? I know I've been challenged recently and then God has that funny sense of humor to spark the thought yet again to prove the importance. I know I'm stunned at many areas in my life....and I consider myself a Christian!? Who am I kidding. That might sound real harsh and horrible to say about myself, but I'm honestly ashamed.

Many things are changing and developing as I embark on one incredible journey called life. Please pray with me every day that we set aside all distractions and nasty things of this world and can become vessels for Christ. I'm praying for you all, brothers, sisters.